OVERwhelmed

o·ver·whelm

verb /ˌōvərˈ(h)welm/ 
overwhelmed, past participle; overwhelmed, past tense; overwhelming, present participle; overwhelms, 3rd person singular present

  • Bury or drown beneath a huge mass
    • – the water flowed through to overwhelm the whole dam and the village beneath
  • Defeat completely
    • – his teams overwhelmed their opponents
  • Give too much of a thing to (someone); inundate
    • – they were overwhelmed by farewell messages
  • Have a strong emotional effect on
    • – I was overwhelmed with guilt

This is how I feel.

No joke!  The past few weeks have been TOUGH; the next few weeks will be TOUGH. 

Here’s why:

A new job on the horizon; The fear of the unknown involving that.

Studying and Tests for licensing needed for the new job; knowing that if I fail everyone will know and it will keep me from my new job. 

A house that doesn’t clean itself, dishes that don’t scrub themselves, meals that don’t cook themselves, and laundry that doesn’t wash itself.

Trying to be an active, involved mother and attempting to keep up with a 2 something year old little boy and remain an integral part of his life, while being spread so thin with all of the other “things” going on in life.

Work. The 8-5 gig.  Stressing that the duties I currently do, won’t be properly handled or there won’t be anyone available to do them, the way I do, when I depart.  (I realize I have a control issue.)

The thought of my baby starting pre-school come August.  It freaks me out and makes me so nervous. Even if it is only 2 mornings; it is 2 mornings in the care of a STRANGERI’m going to puke.

Bills.  Constantly rolling in.

Weight. Could someone please invent a magic pill that allows one to still eat but drop 20 lbs effortlessly? 

…I think I could go on for days.  But the past few weeks, the things mentioned above have really been catching up to me and causing me so much anxiety and headache.  My mind doesn’t stop racing.

I know I just need to suck it up and deal with it.  At this low point, it can only get better right?  …clearly, it can’t get any worse.

I do realize that most of the above stressors and reasons why I feel completely overwhelmed are self-inflicted.

I CHOOSE to leave a comfortable job.  I CHOOSE to start a new job, knowing what all that entailed.  I CHOSE to enroll Will in pre-school to get some socialization with children his age. I CHOSE to build a house bigger than I probably should have, with more mopping and scrubbing real-estate than I ever wanted to clean.  I CHOOSE to not work out – but seriously, I don’t know where I could find the time.

So, yes.  These are self-inflicted stressors…but what was I thinking with them all coming at me at once?

Thinking?  Apparently, I wasn’t.  But it’s life.  Waves of this come and go, just like the tide at the beach.  So for now, I will buckle-up, bear-down, and pray for a successful outcome. 

I’ll pray that I keep my hair and don’t pull it out strand by strand.  I’ll pray that I won’t wake-up, locked in my closet, curled into the fetal position with no intention of removing myself.  I’ll also pray for my family; god keep them from moving to a far-away land to get away from me.

Lastly, I’ll pray for a case of wine to be delivered to my doorstep via Priority Overnight.  Or some Xanax…yes, maybe Xanax is the key. 

So god, if you hear this, send wine…and Xanax!

-EmJ

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Changes…they are a comin’

I issued a teaser the other day regarding some news.  News that I was hoping would be happy news.

Today, I will fill you in on that news.

 

Extra, Extra, Read All About It…

For 5 years now, I have worked at the same job.  For those of you that don’t know where I work, or what I do I will give you a little history…without completely giving things away. 

I think there are some things that shouldn’t be written about on the internet, and going into detail about work stuff is one of them.

I started as an Executive Assistant to the CEO and the CFO of a company, that for no reason in particular will remain unnamed.  My duties grew and grew.  Eventually, I was promoted to the Manager of Meetings and Events at the holding company level.  Basically, for the company that owned the company that originally hired me. You follow?

With my promotion, I was in charge of managing and planning the meetings and events for 3 large companies; all of which had at least 1 BIG annual meeting as well as lots of other smaller meetings and training sessions around the nation.  I also kept my original duties of Executive Assistant, continuing to work for the people who awarded me the promotion and whom I completely respected and admired.  I LOVED my job…I still love it. 

Not long after things were in full swing with my promotion, an amazing, extremely fitting to my personality and strengths, opportunity presented itself to me.  I knew I had to jump on it. 

With that, I announce that at the end of July, I will be leaving my comfort zone and amazing job for an amazing NEW position. 

My new opportunity is many things.  I could probably insert 1,000 different words to describe the millions of emotions running thru my head, but I will spare you.  I will say, that my new opportunity is very exciting, yet extremely scary all at the same time.  I think anyone starting anything new has a little apprehension, and a little nervousness about it.  I think this is mostly attributed to the fear of the unknown.

My new career is a FABULOUS opportunity, and one I couldn’t be more excited to be a part of.  It is an awesome opportunity to put my family in a better financial position, while offering more flexibility.  It is the best of both worlds, and I am really eager to get off the ground and get going.

It has been a LONG time since I’ve been so fired up about something.  And being fired up is an amazing feeling!

So…what am I going to be doing?  I’m sure you are slightly curious.

I am going to be an insurance agent. 

How boring does that sound when I just throw it out there like that?

  I am SO EXCITED to get out and talk to such a wide range of people.  I just love meeting new people!  And I love the fact that I won’t be stuck behind a desk for 9 hours a day!  What’s better, is that the people I will meet with are already somewhat expecting me.  None of that pounding the pavement, cold calling crap that sucks so bad.  These are all warm leads, baby!

In order for me to legally sell insurance products to my new clients, I have to go thru all of the proper licensing requirements.  This means I have to get a 215 Life, Health and Variable Annuity license, as well as a Series 6 license.

Studying for these tests has pretty much taken over my life the past week, and it will probably take up the next 2 months of my life.  So if you don’t see me, just check my home office where I’ll be studying and prepping for my exams…oh, and if you come to visit, bring me a treat.  Preferably, something with caffeine or sugar to keep me going!

To date, I have completed the 40 hour required course for the 215 license (painful), and I found out that I passed the exam for the course.  Which is such a relief, because I had 5 days to memorize a 30 chapter textbook on a subject that I knew nothing about.

I am now eligible to sit for the state examination for the 215 license, which I am doing either at the end of the week, or beginning of next week.  The date of the State exam depends on how long it takes for my background check to go thru. 

Once the state 215 exam is passed, which I plan on passing the first try, I am onto the Series 6.  I’ve heard the Series 6 is a bear, but I’m ready to tackle it.

That is pretty much the end of my announcements!

Wish me luck in my future endeavour, and with passing all of these exams!  I will be sure to keep you informed on how it goes…good or bad. 

In the meantime, I’ll be taking in all of this change while enjoying a big ole’ glass of vino!  I suggest you do the same.

-EmJ

Don’t Cry…Or Do Cry

I know there really isn’t anyone out there routinely reading this blog, or waiting for an updated post from me.  

 Of course, this is partly due to the fact that I haven’t shared this blog with anyone…not even the family pets.  However, I realize that if you are currently reading this post, then I must have finally gotten the balls to share.  Go me!

Sorry. Side-tracked.  Damn Adult A D D.

Anyway, by some teeny-tiny chance there is someone out there waiting patiently for me to post…Don’t cry!

Don't Cry...Frequent Posts are Coming!

 
Cry?

Why would you cry, you ask?

Due to my stint of non-existence, of course.

I really wanted this new blog writting hobby to be a frequent part of my week, or even day. But I’ve been temporarily hi-jacked.

I will explain later as to why I’ve been hi-jacked… hopefully I will have some very exciting news to share, and it will be a happy announcement and not a- pass me the bottle, drown my sorrows, ‘are you f’ing kidding me,’ announcement.

No Mom, I’m not pregnant!
(I do realize my mother isn’t currently reading this blog – as no one is.  But as I mentioned above- about having the balls to share it, and the time passing that I actually did; I predict that she will actually read this one day.  So I figured I’d just throw this little fact out there for when  she does.  OH- and another reason I mention this, is because whenever I say that, “I have news,” she automatically asks me if I’m pregnant.  It’s just her thing.  I say, “I’m tired.” She say’s, “Are you pregnant!”  I say, “I don’t feel good.”  She says, “Are you pregnant.”  You get the picture.  Love you Mom, and I promise…NOT pregnant! )   🙂

Sorry, ADD kicked in, again. I’ll move on…

Since I somehow got on the topic of crying, and to try to provide you, all ZERO of you, with some sort of substance (other than the hilarious crying picture of my child)- I thought I’d leave you with a blog I discovered that I REALLY think you should check out.

http://alicepyne.blogspot.com/

You won’t be disappointed. But I will issue this warning: Go ahead and grab a box of Kleenex….if you are anything like me, you might just shed a tear.  It’s all about tears today.
Till next time! (hopefully with some exciting news – and no more tears)
-EmJ

Ready. Set. Go!

I’ve dabbled a bit in blogging, but I found, like a lot of other things in my life I hit the ground running while quickly letting the commitment slide. Life just has a funny way of getting in the way.

Who am I?

I am a woman, hear me roar!

I’m kidding.

Who am I really? – I am a woman who is rapidly approaching thirty. I am a full-time wife, mother, maid, chauffeur, accountant, cook, decorator, party planner, home manager and employee. Sometimes I find it is hard to balance all of these “jobs” in my life, and when I struggle is usually when things get a little interesting. I’ll be honest – I struggle a lot, BUT I have learned to improvise in the hard times, and when needed I:

  • Drink a glass bottle of wine.
  • Escape to my happy place – my king size bed with soft bedding and multiple feather pillows, my ipad in one hand and a glass of wine in the other, the TV set to E! network and, wait for it…a delicious bottle of red wine, un-corked and resting peacefully on my nightstand ready to fulfill my need for a refill.
  • Break down in tears.
  • A combination of any, or all of the above.

In my previous blog, which MIGHT have had 12 posts in a years time; I didn’t write about anything in particular – and chances are I won’t in this blog either.

Truth is, I just like to write.

I wish I was better at it, and I wish I had more time for it; to practice, to master, to work on my grammar.

Maybe one day.

I have no readers at this point, and I don’t anticipate having any readers, much less dedicated followers…but if you happen to stumble upon my blog and start reading, please don’t count on being thoroughly impressed by my writing capabilities, my witty humor, or my life-like story telling capabilities. Chances are, my posts will be pretty life-less and boring. I’m just counting on this ole’ blog to be a creative outlet to get me through some of the monotony of day-to-day life.  I also needed a hobby, and this one comes pretty cheap.  Consider this your official warning – this blog might suck!

Besides needing a hobby and a creative outlet, another big reason for this blog is the simple fact that it will help me recall stories and events that I might otherwise forget. Kind of like a baby book, but for my adult life. After all, I am quickly approaching the big THREE-O. It is very possible that the Alzheimer’s will be kicking in soon…it could happen, right?

So with that all being said…Ready. Set. Go!

I’m starting fresh; with a new blog address,a blank canvas and a stong desire to keep this hobby going strong.

If you read my blog, awesome. If you don’t read it, screw you no worries. There are far more interesting things out there in the blog world, I’m 110% sure of that.

Till Next Time,

I’m reaching for a refill.

-EmJ